If Someone Had Told Me …

If someone told me five years ago that today I would have a hole in my heart that would be discovered only after having a mini stroke, I would have laughed.
If someone had told me five years ago that today that same plug would be leaking, requiring me to take plavix so I would not get a full blown stroke, I would have laughed.
If someone told me five years ago that when they repair the hole they would discover that my sarcoidosis spread to my heart, I would have laughed.
If someone had told me five years ago that today I would be living with heart failure because the sarcoidosis went to my heart, I would have laughed.
If someone had told me five years ago that today I would have a defibrillator implanted in my chest to keep me from sudden death, I would have laughed.
If someone had told me five years ago that today I would develop pulmonary hypertension, I would have asked them “What’s that?”
If someone had told me five years ago that today walking up a flight of steps would have me breathless I would have laughed.
If someone had told me five years ago that today I my activities would be restricted I would ask “By whom?”
If someone had told me five years ago that today I, who never took any medication, would be taking fourteen prescribed tablets a day to keep going, I would be on the floor laughing.
If someone had told me five years ago that today I would need to have portable oxygen when I go to the gym and on hikes and to sleep, I would have asked them if they were crazy.
If someone had told me five years ago that today I would not be able to go hiking like I used to, or go on long drives any more, and would need a little blue card to go through airport security in a separate section, or not be able to run, or to sled, or to do so many thing I loved to do any more, I would have definitely laughed until I cried.
If someone had told me five years ago that today I would be fighting with pre-diabetes because I would be on prednisone for years, I would have laughed.
If someone had told me five years ago that today I would have such an appreciation for every day that comes my way, love and appreciate my wife more that I ever thought could be possible, appreciate every moment I spend with everyone, learn never to leave a situation angry, be with everyone like it’s the last time you’ll ever see them, enjoy the beauty in nature like never before, be grateful for my family like I never thought possible, be happy for the day whether it is sunny or rainy, snowing or foggy, be happy for those days when I have energy and learn to just embrace the days when I don’t, be at peace and knowing that I am truly blessed with the fact that I am alive, I would have definitely said “sign me up”.

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