Once You Have Hope
I received an email from a sarcoidosis sufferer asking me how can constantly maintain a positive attitude. I have answered this question so many times that I did not know what analogy to use again. And then I went to school today and got my answer.
I had midterms and in one class I got a grade of 70%. When I saw that grade, one would think that I would be depressed. So did I, but I was not. 70% is passing, and 69% is failing. I was so happy that I passed because when I took the exam I thought that I had failed.
I got the results right after that for another class, and I got 98%. I got one question wrong, and one would think I would be happy, but my first reaction was “shit”! I was instantly disappointed that one question wrong prevented a perfect score.
And that’s how it is in real life. When life seems to moving along perfectly, you are all happy, and then you stump your toe on a chair and break it, and everything seems to fold in on you. The worst thing in the world has just happened to you.
Live with a chronic illness with multiple satellite conditions stemming from that illness, where every day of your life you wake up with some ache or pain some where in your body and you look outside and there is a beautiful red cardinal sitting on a branch just relaxing, you appreciate that moment, because you have your eye sight and can see that bird, your hearing to hear that bird, your ability to walk to the window to see that bird and your senses to take it all in and be able to process it. You are grateful not only to be alive, but to be living. Sometimes the breaths may be labored, but I am still breathing. Sometimes I may feel like complete crap with no energy, but I’ll try to push trough and not feel sorry for myself, because there is always the hope for tomorrow will be a better day.
There is a line from one of my favorite songs by my favorite artists, Olivia Newton John, and it goes like this:
“A dream is just a dream till you live it,
Peace is just a word till you feel it
Love is always there when you share it
You have strength, you have faith, you have hope
Hope is always here
Once you have hope, hope that tomorrow is going to be a better day, then there is always something to be positive. Once you lose hope, you have nothing. So my answer is, I always have hope for a better day, and when I have a good day, I really, really appreciate it.