Today I went to see my regular pulmonologist on a routine visit, no tests or blood work. I have been stuffy for the last two months and nothing is helping, so he referred me to an Ear Nose and Throat doctor to check if I have any polyps in my nasal cavity.
Other than that, he’s happy. I lost 10 pounds, and that’s a big plus considering that my blood sugar and cholesterol levels have been up recently. Those numbers should be coming down soon once I continue on the weight loss path. Just 20 more pounds to go to get back to where I was before all this madness started.
I felt in a really well physically and emotionally today. I always love it when I go to a doctor and they are happy with my condition. I took the pups out for a long walk around the property when I got back. It was beautiful, no clouds, a blanket of white as far as the eye could see.
I wanted to go out for lunch. My wife is out today so I decided to eat with a friend of mine that I have not been alone with in a very long time. He likes the same food that I do so where ever I decided to eat would be fine with him. I could sit with him and say nothing and I would know what he was feeling, thinking, and vice versa. We have not been alone, really and truly consciously alone together for years, and I only realized that today. I really needed to reconnect with him, to just sit and be with him, enjoy his company and appreciate him completely. That friend is me.
I can’t remember when last I was truly alone with myself. Really WITH myself. Actually I don’t think that I ever really consciously spent time alone with myself. I don’t mean meditating or any thing like that. I mean just sitting and appreciating your own company. Feeling really good about yourself. Appreciating all that you have been through and faced it head on. You with you.
Well I did that today and it was really very, very special. I had a chance to sit and eat and actually thank myself for being me. There is no greater love than that love you feel for your self. In the words of the immortal RhuPaul, “If you can’t love yourself, then how the hell are you going to love anyone else?“
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