Welcome to another Flash Back Monday posting. This post is from 2010 where I question my future. Be sure to see my update at the end.
“Looking For The Light At The End Of The Tunnel”
Posted on July 8, 2010
I am a chef. I never planned to be a chef. I didn’t wake up one day when I was 12 and say “I am going to be a chef when I grow up”. When I was 12 I never thought of life beyond 13. As a matter of fact, going through high school when other kids were seeing them selves as doctors, lawyers, pimps or whatever, the farthest into the future I ever considered was what I was going to have for dinner. I have always lived my life one day at a time, and still continue to do so.
Working as a chef is a physically and emotionally stressful job at times. I just happened into it back in the late 80s, ended up going to the world’s best and only full time cooking college, where I was the Dean’s list every semester, and graduated with Honors.
Holding that degree has opened many a door for me and with it I have been able to earn a comfortable living. I always wanted something to fall back on and the year when the Sarcoidosis spread to my heart, I was going to school to learn another hands on profession, that did require a lot of physical activity, although far be it from stressful.
Ever the optimist, I took a leave of absence to have my heart surgeries and returned the next year to continue. Needless to say, I was not physically able to continue the course and had to permanently drop out.
Now that leaves to ponder, where do I go from here. I definitely can’t do physical chef work for the rest of my life. It’s too draining. Now I have to find a job that is not physically demanding and pays well that I like! Why didn’t I think this through when I was twelve?
UPDATE: Since writing that post, an opportunity arose for me to finish the course in massage therapy that I started. The school knew of my condition, and worked with me so that I could finish and get my license. I graduated in July last year and have since passed the national board exam and will get my license soon. I do not plan to be a massage therapist, but will continue my education in other healing modalities such as Qi Gong and Cranio Sacral Therapy. Those healing modalities are not physically taxing, but do require one to have a massage therapy license.