Today I had no intention or desire to go to my therapist.
You may have read before the previous post that I started Buddhist
psychotherapy. Today I was in no mood to talk. It was a long
weekend, I was really really tired and in no mood for dealing with
anything. But I decided to go anyway because usually when you don’t
want to go is when you really need to go. Earlier in the day, I was
going through my Facebook post, when I saw one of my friends put up
a warning about using ATMs and and being cautious. There was a
video attached to the warning. It was a video with an old woman who
was entering an ATM that was not secure. It was a lonely cubicle
and the door did not lock. Long story short she was killed, and I
was not expecting it. The murder was gruesome and it disturbed me
very deeply. So when I got to my therapy session, I talked about it
with my therapist. I could not get the image out if my mind. My
therapist is a Buddhist therapist, which is a lot different to
regular psychotherapist who just sits there listens and nods. A
Buddhist therapist delves more into the spiritual side of things
rather than just clinical. I’m not going to any detail about my
session, but all I would say is that I came out of that session
feeling a million times better than when I went in. My whole
outlook on looking at the traumatic video assimilating it has
drastically changed. Although the video was still gruesome, the
images are no longer upsetting. I learned how to put the whole thing in a different perspective and it is something I will use in every aspect of my life.
Simply put, there is my business, your business and God’s business. All I need to be concerned with is my business. It take a lot of stress away.