This Is A Blogging A To Z Challenge Post
I am the type of person that would make the effort to keep up communication with friends and family, and more and more, the effort has been purely one sided. Mine. There comes a point where you just get tired of trying, and being the only one to make the effort, and so you stop.
That's where I am now. I am tired of being the one to always give a shit and end up the one being shit on. Stick your neck out and it gets chopped off. I am tired of people and their bullshit.
In times of trouble, when the chips are down and people need an ear, I hear from them. They call, they text, they whine, they complain. Then nothing. Times are good and I never hear from them. It is very disconcerting that when people are having a hard time, the person they think of to share that with is me. What about when you are having a good time? It makes me feel used.
I think in general I am just so tired of having to make the effort with family and friends. And as of this week I stopped. I am just pulling back completely. I am terminating trying to talk. Relationships are a two way process, and it should be an equal effort by all. And I just know that when people realize I am silent they will call and text with the most annoying of phrases, “I haven't heard from you in a while …”